Is Paralysis going to stop me from birthing my creations?
I have been going through the process of investing in my business to bring it online. Since the pandemic hit I haven’t been able to see clients in person. It hit my business really hard. I have wanted to take my teachings online and the current circumstances have pushed me off the cliff and forced me to do so.
I had an idea of how much of an undertaking it would be, but I really had no idea what I was getting into. It was so much more work than I thought it would be. As I have been going through the process there has been a lot of emotions that have come up.
It took me some time to really knuckle down and record the first module for the course. When I finally committed I was hit with a sea of emotions. I felt nervous, anxious, stressed. I got frustrated with my technology because to add insult to injury my tech was messing up. I was having issues with my teleprompter. I was feeling so much emotion that it was hard to me to really focus in and get my video lessons done. It took me all day just to get one lesson done.
I was so proud of myself for getting the one done and at the same time I was mad at myself for taking the whole day to get one video done. I realized at this pace it was going to take me more than a week to get all the videos done just for the first module.
The reality of putting myself out there and sharing 6 years of my work created a massive emotional flow. It’s one thing to think about putting yourself out there and another thing to do it.
Going through this process has made me not only flow emotions which I am so grateful for it has also made me think about how so many people are paralyzed by the fear of rejection, the overwhelm of so many things to get done to realize a dream.
It occurred to me that when I notice myself avoiding doing something, putting something off, or I’m feeling overwhelmed by a huge mountain I have to climb. I am just having a moment feeling paralyzed by what I have to do. I decided that instead of being paralyzed and not moving forward that I am going to tell myself a different story.
I am on pause. A pause is temporary, brief, just a moment to take a breather. There is nothing wrong with taking a pause to collect yourself and decide what you need to support you moving forward.
In the case of avoiding something or putting something off there is more than likely emotion surfacing that is creating the need to avoid what is in front of me. All I have to do is flow the emotions and I can keep going as the thing I am avoiding won’t feel so insurmountable anymore.
If I am feeling overwhelmed by a huge mountain I have to climb it’s because I haven’t really taken the time to map it out and really get clear on what the abc, 123 of getting it done looks like. I just have to stop and take the time and get support to map it out. More often than not when something feels like a mountain to climb it’s because I really don’t know how to get something I want done. If I talk to someone who has walked the path and knows the abc, 123 then I can get the answers I need so it isn’t just one big ? in my mind. Once I know what it all looks like it doesn’t feel so overwhelming anymore. I have found in my experience that it’s the unknown that causes the overwhelm.
Seeing things as a pause instead of letting myself get carried away with the emotions and letting them paralyze me is really helpful.
I wanted to share this with you in case any of you who find yourself paralyzed are looking for a way to break out of it. Also, I want you to know that you are not alone. We all go through this when we are birthing our own creations.
When you feel the emotions hit you, play with the idea of saying you are on “Pause” instead of paralyzed.
Harmony Woodington C.Ht.